Personal Legend

If you recognize these words then you've probably read The Alchemist, a friend loaned me the book because I could use the message of the book. She was right. I tried reading the book a few months ago and I was half interested. I thought to myself o.k. we got this young sheperd roaming different lands with his flock, I'm not in the mood *closes book*. I usually love my page turners with some crazy romance, suspense thriller, or some intricate witty novel, but this one I'm taking my time with. I'm only on pg. 40 and I don't want the book to end. I have to say this is reminiscent of the Job and right now I'm started to feel like him.

Last week I was hit with a tough issue and a hard lesson learned. As the issue escalated it seemed like things were falling apart all around me. Now that I think about it, everything wasn't falling apart just back into place. I'll admit I lost track of what is important to me. Notice I haven't blogged in several weeks and it wasn't because I landed the job of my dreams. In the aftermath I wasn't feeling well and I stayed at home for a few days, something I haven't done since I've been in Chicago. After these days of rest I got up to face the world. It was scary because everything seemed so different. Everyday has it's purpose and it's your job to find out what it is and never see it as a day wasted.

But back to the Personal Legend, since I've neglected my reason for being (writing) I felt my life becoming this blackhole and life wasn't making sense anymore. Yes, people it was that serious. I am a writer my dear readers and in order for me to make a living off of my craft, I'll have to pour my heart out and create for my soul and you. If you haven't found out what you're suppose to seek in your life, be proactive and look, because if you don't you're merely existing. So for those who haven't read The Alchemist, at some point you need to. The first 40 pages reaffirmed the power of writing.

The Bad Decade

I want to apologize to my readers for taking my week off, but I needed it. You would think that because writing is my outlet that I would've came up with 10 new posts. I had to click the "refresh" button on the Wilder browser. I feel better and focused sometimes all you need to do is get away, just for a minute.

Back to the regularly scheduled program.

Today, I was at work conversing with a spunky older lady who comes into my store all the time and she said something that I've been hearing over the past week, 'This was a bad decade.'

Now, I'm only 23 so I haven't really experienced what it means to have a bad decade or year for that matter. Ms. Spunky wasn't refering to her life because many people don't break down their life into bad years or decades. Maybe it's just how life is, it gets rough and you recover. She was refering to the world, "I think people wanted to stay inside this year and be with loved ones." I usually ignore the world when it comes to my NYE reflection, but today I said to myself 'Wow, things didn't really start off promising in the new millenium.

I recall ringing in 2000 in my bed ready to pull the covers over my head because everyone said the world was going to end, computers would explode, or all major cities would just shut down. Well, nothing happened but as the years started rolling by a lot of unfortunate things were happening left and right. Today I think I'll initiate a new tradition and save NYD for pumping all the good energy I can for the world. I haven't gotten the logistics of it down, but I'm pretty sure you'll hear about it in 2011.

This will be my first really significant decade, the first one of my adult life and my hope is that there will be room for hope.

KEEP IT MOVING

There are times in your life where you begin to understand the type of person you are and that's how it's been for all of 2009. I've understood that I do not partake in confrontation despite my hard edge and sometimes in-your-face attitude. I can be a dominant person, but if someone else strolls through with the same personality I cower.

O.K. enough with the beating up myself part, let's uplift Wilder (and yourself). I am pretty damn resourceful and more than willing to take care of myself and my business. I'm also attentive and aware of my situation so I don't let anything fly under the radar.

Having these good qualities can be stressful because I know when it's time to move on. Real life is a constant motion (if you want it this way) and you always have to have a plan. I don't mean career. I mean how are you going to get to work, how much are those snow boots going to cost, and can you break a rule even though you're an adult (oops).


I'm only 23, but I've been told I'm mature for my age. I have a hard time believing that considering my life experience because I have yet to pay a month's rent or really balance a check book ~gasp~

The whole point of tonight's post is this no matter what you're situation is keep working towards something better, it will come. There's plenty of discomfort so find a place to rest your head or someone who makes the sun shine brighter.