Growing Pains of the Mind

So, I was taking the train this morning trying to come up with a plan B. Turns out it's my last resort plan. I've only been in Chicago for 6 months + and I'm already turning to the do or die. Right now at this very moment I'm not in the mood to go through any extended process if I don't have to (looks like I do though). Jobs don't work that way and life doesn't either.

It could be perhaps I have a ton of other things on my mind that I should probably address while trying to move forward. Nothing's worse than a brain concentrating on something else when you need it to work properly.

Anyway so the title of this entry "Growing Pains of the Mind" is about the things you go through that only exist in your head. You're sad, worried, anxious, confused, etc. How do you deal with these things? I'd love to be like some of my resilient friends and brush stuff off and keep moving. Maybe I'm not giving myself enough credit and I am one of those people. My friends are not saying they don't think about problems/issues they've been through, they just don't dwell. I guess right now I have this desire to fast forward through the "struggling" part of my life and get to easy street or when things get better.

I'll take a step back and look at this.

Who says things will be later on? What I go forward too far and miss an opportunity? Well, I don't have the option to be frozen in a capsule or have access to the remote control for life. What I do have is time to do whatever and whenever. I'll kick myself later if I don't take advantage of it. Today I'm kicking myself for not being anywhere near to being stable.

So, I'm going to tell myself this, 'Self, get out of your head.'